I can't believe how long it's been since I've posted something to be seen and (probably not) read across the blogosphere. Sitting here now, it almost seems like a lifetime ago that I was struggling to find focus in my last weeks as an undergraduate.
For the first 22 years of my life (well not counting the first few before I could read and talk) I was a student...and I loved that role, being in class, trying to absorb as much information as possible in the hope that it would lead me to an exciting career and life once the education phase of my life was finished. Now that I am not a student, I am realizing that all the stress and worry that came with being one was totally worth it because the chance to learn was more than worth the hardships. In fact, I really miss being in school. My job is a nice break from going to class and worrying about getting homework done, but I really miss the learning process. Sitting in class on the first day of the semester, excited to see the syllabus and get a feel for where the course will be going over the following weeks...tentatively starting conversations with fellow classmates about what other classes they're taking, how many credits, what they want to do with their degree...trying to organize all the work that will inevitably pile up in the last weeks of the term beforehand, never quite succeeding in getting all planned out...going to the bookstore to find new/used textbooks then flipping through them to see what lies ahead.
All of these details seem trivial when glanced at, but when viewed in hindsight, they are precious snippets of life as a student that I really do miss. The interaction with my peers, while awkward at times, is something that enriched my life and gave me something to think about long after class was over.
This sense of loss...the longing to be back in the classroom, is something I will be using to motivate me to work hard and do absolutely everything in my power to get back to school and continue on this wonderful road called education...
