Growing...

I'm sitting in my room and it just hit me that the semester is pretty much over. I mean, I still three tests and a short paper, but it feels like school is already done (which might be bad for the studying, let's hope not!). It's strange to realize that my first semester in Denver is already over, it seems like I just moved here. But its been almost four months and I'm closer than I ever thought I would be to graduating at this point.
At the end of every semester, I tend to lapse into a very reflective mood and start analyzing the term that is ending and thinking about what might be coming in the next one. This semester especially, I've been thinking a lot about who I'm becoming in Denver and how my life has changed since I got here. Honestly, I have very mixed feelings about my time here thus far. While there have been some things that have been wonderful and fulfilling, there have been others that weren't so wonderful. I know that the Lord has been using this time to work in my life and show me different things about myself, but sometimes I feel like I've missed the point.
Have you ever had a moment when you look back at a situation or a time and realize that you completely missed what God was showing you because you were too absorbed in other things? Well, I hope that I haven't completely missed what He's been showing me, actually I know I haven't missed everything, but I do think that I have missed opportunities to grow and break out of my shell. I don't want to look back at this past semester and regret things that I did or didn't do, because I know that the Lord loves me, failures and all, and that this is a forward moving process. Living in the past is not helpful, which is something that I've definitely been learning lately.
I want to take the past four months and grow from my experiences during that time. My hope for the break coming up, which is much longer that I've ever had before, is that the Lord will show me what He wants for me in this city. After this semester, I know for certain things that don't work, and I really want to the woman God created me to be. I am here for a reason and the way its looking now I have less than a year left in Denver, and I want to make the most of it!