Where do I start?

Well, I'm obviously failing at posting on this blog with any sort of regularity thus far...I don't have an excuse for it, I suppose it's just one more thing to add to the list of things I need to work on diligence wise.   But this I also refuse to let this blog be something I feel guilty about.  When I come to this page and start typing, I don't ever want to feel bad that it's been too long since the last time I wrote, I want to come here and feel freedom.  This is a place for me to record my thoughts and dreams without worrying about how often I write or how well-written the pieces might or might not be.  At this particular moment I will admit that I'm having trouble expressing what it is that's going on in my mind and heart, but suffice it to say it seems significant.  There's something going on...and my hope is that through writing some of this stuff down I'll be able to come to some sort of consensus and figure out, even if it comes in bits and pieces, what's happening to me.  It feels big and important and I'm both excited and terrified of what it is, but I'm determined to use this incredible space to figure it out...so bear with me, it's going to be an interesting ride...